Hello there, 2018. I know, I know, it’s March! January seemed to drag on for all eternity and then February flew past and now we’re here. I don’t know what I want this post to be. I do know that I want to address the New Year as I feel it would be rude not to. This is where I would usually type out my yearly blog goals followed by my yearly personal goals. However, it’s March and I’m still so undecided on what I want to do and where I want to do it. I always tell myself I’ll bring my blog along for the journey and reach those ‘followers’ goals but here we are again trying to get back on track after an unintended 10-month break!
At first, I had my mind set on bettering the planet this year. I was determined to stop using plastic bags and plastic straws. I want to stop buying food to let it sit and go off before it takes a trip to the bin. These are all things that I genuinely think about. But I’ve already found myself sat with a McDonald’s straw in my lap because I was too anxious to ask not to be given one. I, too, have found myself standing with my arms laden in the queue in my local shop and had to regretfully request a bag or risk serious injuries trying to get home. Some days, I really struggle. Everyone does. I struggle to get out of bed, to get dressed, to eat something decent and to drink enough. Right now, looking after the planet is too ambitious when, at times, I can’t always look after myself. I admire all of you who are actively doing their best for the planet and all its beings. Thank you.
In a personal goals post from years back, I had put down that I would pass my driving test. One whole year of lessons later and I’m still not too close to passing. My first instructor didn’t sit well with me. The second had no time slots that fitted into my non-existent work patterns – I’m a care assistant that works shifts. Finally, third time lucky, I have found a brilliant instructor that handles my nerves extremely well. But, that’s just it, my nerves. One day I will be confident and cruise down the road trying out 2-3 new things per lesson. The next, I’ll be asked to stop several times because it’s clear I’m not breathing properly, I’ll be reluctant to go over 40 mph and refuse to try anything new. As well as this, if my shifts change I may not be available for my lesson. If my shifts go down I can’t afford my driving lesson (the joy of 0-hour contracts, huh) and so here I am on another two-month break from driving lessons. However, due to writing that goal down and throwing it out into the void I sometimes beat myself up over not having it done. Therefore, I’m reluctant about writing such a post this year.
I do want to ask myself a favour, though. Please go outside more, Amy. It doesn’t have to be far. Make a cup of tea and sit on the back doorstep and just breathe. Take in the fresh air. Watch the grass move with the wind. Have a staring competition with the neighbours’ cat. Don’t over think it. Don’t worry about missing the postie or a phone call. Just do it. Take 5 minutes out of your day at least once a day to just sit and breathe and think. Just do it.
In regards to my blog, I didn’t have much intention of returning until recently. But then, I never intended to leave either. I never do. I had a meeting with a mental health charity recently who asked me what things I do that I enjoy. I couldn’t answer. When asking about what I used to do that I enjoy, though, I couldn’t shut up. When asked why I no longer do these things the excuses varied from I struggle to leave the house, my non-existent shift pattern won’t allow it, its weather dependent and I don’t see the point in doing it just for me. When it came to why I no longer write not a single excuse came to mind. I can write from the comfort of my own home – heck the comfort of my own bed! Writing can be done at a time that suits you and it can be on any topic big or small. It can be short and sweet or long like this. With that in mind, I logged onto my blogging twitter for a snoop at what had happened in my absence. I haven’t logged out since. Within a few days, I was asked to host my first ever blog chat which was fantastic and was thoroughly enjoyable. There you go, doing something enjoyable, just you, for the first time in 10 months. So here I am.
**Warning – here comes a wee boring segment regarding scheduling**
My hopes are to have six posts up per month- a weekly post each Sunday that will be a topic of my fancy or, on occasion, a guest post. Along with, a round-up post each month summarising my social media endeavours and shout outs. A monthly chat like this should also hopefully make an appearance if I feel there’s anything to chat about. I do have a social media schedule that I typed up for myself but technical difficulties have resulted in a few minor setbacks so far. My social media schedule mainly includes writing every single day and posting those ramblings on Facebook and Instagram in turn. Writing is very therapeutic for me and doing so daily is a great habit to have. You may find this of interest and you may not and that’s okay. On Twitter (my favourite social media platform) I will be doing my best to connect with everyone and share positivity with you all. I will be doing weekly Instagram shout-outs of accounts that have taken my fancy, sharing posts that I have loved throughout the course of the week and sharing news stories that I have enjoyed (or perhaps not enjoyed and my reasons for this).
When it comes to blog goals I am setting myself none. I always set them and then disappear for a month or 10 or 12. I also don’t want this to be a numbers game. I have not monetised my blog and so the number of views I get right now is not what’s important to me. What is important is that I write content that I love. I engage with other like-minded writers/bloggers from all over the world. If I manage to raise mental health awareness (something I’m particularly passionate about) in the process and brighten someone’s day on as many days as possible then I will be ecstatic.
I hope you have stuck around until the end of my first ever 2018 post. More so, I hope it was an enjoyable read. Comments are welcomed with open arms whether it is what you liked, disliked or hope to see in the future.